Danzig is the mother fuckin' man!

I love how Ive dropped shit for so long, then some dumb slut brings it back up and gives me that homicidal urge once again...

Were gonna stay eighteen forever, so we can stay like this forever...

I feel so betrayed. I thought I was over this shit a long time ago. I'll never know how someone can be so demented.

its been forever since ive done anything on here...
im kinda ashamed of myself...

anyways, I guess now days im gonna post for my benefit, seeing as how I need some serious therapy and talking to myself seems to do the trick. Weird, I know.

Colton is seven months old. Its hard to believe that little chunker is almost a year old. Time has went by so fast, even though Ive been through so much.
Justin STILL isnt around, and since I have a political activism class, Im going to learn exactly how to propose a bill and maybe this session Ill push the deadbeat dad bill Ive been thinking up.
Im so sick of him and how he treats me and how he hurts Colton.
He's done too much just to get back at me.
Nobodys perfect, I understand that, but I never did anyhting to deserve any of this.
What burns my ass the most about it is that while my happiness level is at an alltime low, he's out having the time of his life while I juggle working, school, and the baby.
I love my son to pieces, but Ive never been so unhappy in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I should have seen all of this coming, but who was to know?

School is going good.
Ill graduate from UC a year early and then on to law school I go.
When I get my bar license, Jutsins ass will never see outside of some metal bars ever again.
Ive met a lot of interesting people, and I feel as if it has been almost therapeutic.
I dont know, maybe things will turn around, maybe he will grow up, but it hasnt happened in the last six months, and Im not counting on it ever happening, but wishful thinking never killed anyone, or did it?

I feel lost. I need Justin.
I need anything.

So, I just updated my music list on mypsace, and I decided instead of bands, I'd use my favorite albums, so I thought I'd share with you guys.

Oh, and None More Black is one of the most amazing bands EVER. If you've never heard them, I suggest you come out from that rock you live under and hit that shit up.

(and yes, they are in specific order.)

GG Allin is my hero.

Who else writes songs called:
Expose Yourself to Kids
I Wanna Rape You
Gimme Some Head
Assface
Pussy Summit Meteing
I kill Everything I Fuck
I'm Infected With AIDS (My personal favorite)
Be My Fuckin' Whore
Last In Line For The Gangbang
Eat My Diarrhea (?)
Sister Sodomy
Legalize Murder
Drink, Fight, and Fuck
Sluts In The City
I'm Gonna Rape You
Fucking The Dog

I shit you not. I bought a GG Allin greatest hits cd today (like he had any hits?) and thats the tracklisting.
WTF IS WRONG WITH PPL?!?

Bad day.
eh, I have alot of those now days.
It started out...normal, but it's ending in anything but that.
It makes me mad that people are so one-sided about things.
How can you hear part of a story, automatically get mad, and not hear the other half?
People need to grow up.

Today may be the best day yet.
Jessi is supposed to come over.
Im going to Rio,
and I'm gonna party tonight, since I leave for Jersey Sunday.
Yes, I've decided I'm going to go just becaiuse I've always wanted to go to the shore, now i can :D
yay.

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